These relationships can of course also include the person’s biological family, but as the quotes show, they are often constituted by relationships with partners and friends who provide social and practical support in everyday life. What is different here is that friends, and not infrequently ex-partners, are often reported as playing an important role and are highlighted as people that the person can count on for support and help in everyday life. Birgit, aged 69, explains that her ex-partners often remain in her life as close friends because the lesbian contexts in the 1970s were so small that it would have been too socially awkward to not get along well even if the love relationship ended (Meggers Mathiessen, 2019:33). Partners are often important of course, and sometimes these romantic relationships have been going on for several decades. Here, there can be differences between cis people in same-sex relationships and trans people, where for the people in same sex relationships, it means a shared experience of deviation from heteronormativity, where they can renegotiate norms together and share experiences and work out strategies (Siverskog, 2016:92; Bromseth, 2013:62; Eggebø et al., 2019:61et seq.). However, a person who identifies as transgender who has or has had romantic relationships with cis people cannot share experiences of being trans and deviating from cis norms (Siverskog, 2016:92).
Having a same-sex partner has not necessarily meant being acknowledged and confirmed by the environment surrounding the person. The studies show how heteronormativity creates different conditions for those who do not have relationships that conform to heteronormativity. One participant in the Norwegian study talks about how she was not seen by employers and her surroundings in her lesbian relationship: “Being treated like someone who was alone was the hardest thing. They deducted pay on the day I was going to attend my partner’s funeral” (Møllerop, 2013:287).
Even for those who have had close, supportive relationships, ageing can mean that many of them pass away (Eggebø et al., 2019; Siverskog, 2016)). Sture, a non-binary transperson aged 76, says: “You have to realise that the older you get, the more alone you are” (Sture, 76, in Siverskog, 2016:237). Another participant says:
A lot of people have died (…) And I have lost… most of my close friends. (…) Precisely those you might have talked to a lot and had a lot of contact with and been able to discuss things with that you can’t talk about with anyone else. That’s what you miss the most. (Maj, 68 years, in Siverskog 2016:237)
As Maj says, shared experiences, memories and relationships are lost when those who have previously been close pass away. As mentioned earlier, many of those who are older today were also part of the LGBTI community during the time of the HIV and AIDS epidemic that impacted gay men in particular, many of whom experienced the loss of loved ones. Aksel, 65 years, says: ”Jeg kan navngive i hvert fald 30, der er forsvundet på den konto... det tror jeg også følger en, fordi det som egentlig skulle have været netværk, de er jo væk.” (Meggers Mathiessen, 2019:55).
That period in time is marked by personal loss, fear and an intensified homophobia in the wider community. But it was also a time when fellowship in the LGBTI community collectively dealt with crises and losses through mutual support (Siverskog, 2016:180). These experiences can re-emerge in connection with needing social care and in relation to the end stage of life. One participant who is in a hospice talks about how the same people with whom he previously shared losses and political struggle are there for him now:
We lived a very social life with those who were in the fight, they are the ones who have come to see me now that I am in here. That’s been really great. Then you can also say that there are many older people who have been sick and died from AIDS and had, we have friendships that have been with them and taken care of them right to the end. So that has well, you have to say that, before it is too late, you have to get yourself social contacts, social contacts, social contacts, social contacts, social contacts, social contacts. That’s been my mantra to everyone. Then, then, then you will have a good old age. (Inge, 88 years, in Siverskog, 2016:88)
But even though many older LGBTI people are part of what they refer to as chosen families and have strong networks and relationships, far from everyone has stories of being alone, voluntarily as well as involuntarily, are present in the studies.
Many people complain that they are alone, and that they can be alone even with their partners and in all sorts of contexts. Yes, I tell them, I know that but when I get home on Friday afternoon it feels empty until Monday morning, unless I go out by myself. I mean I don’t have anyone, I don’t like that kind of thing, but just that kind of thing like going to a flea market, going to the theatre, well you know, you name it, how much fun it is when you go with someone. Just a friend. I can miss that. (Klas, 64 years, in Siverskog, 2016:200)
I don’t think I’m alone in that way. I can feel lonely sometimes, but it’s more because, as soon as there’s a holiday, everyone is suddenly away. Then they choose family and friends and children. And I am left alone. I have nowhere to go during the summer holidays, Easter holidays, Christmas holidays... and then I feel lonely. It is such a sad realisation to come to. But I know it’s true, it’s in those situations that I’m lonely. (Søren. 65 years old, in Meggers Mathiessen, 2019:55)
The feeling of loneliness can be especially acute during family-oriented holidays and celebrations. Some people have large networks, but few supportive relationships of a more personal nature. Thus it is important to look at the quality of relationships. Other factors also play a role in the nature of relationships and networks: social, cultural and financial resources; whether a person lives in an urban or rural area; and proximity to communities (Siverskog, 2016; Bromseth, 2013). Many of those with strong networks and chosen families have previously been involved in political movements, which in turn are often marked by middle-class experiences (Siverskog, 2016). Heteronormative language can also confuse and create uncertainty, for example in healthcare situations. In a Danish study, Søren explains how he would fill in a contact person in a healthcare context: