Irene, a 70-year-old lesbian woman, says her sexual desire is just as strong now that she is older:
But I also masturbate and that keeps it alive. I think every woman should do this actually, keep it alive. (...) You get something, it’s such a life-affirming feeling. (...) No, so I masturbate and Ingrid and I work with and re-evaluate our sex life as well and make something better out of it. So when we make love, those of us who are a bit older, then maybe the positions that we thought were good a while back are no longer good because, you might not be as flexible in bed so or maybe you should have another bed, maybe a somewhat firmer bed. So that’s what we’re doing. But you have to take responsibility for your own sexuality and keep it alive and I think masturbation is very good and now you can go to the pharmacy and buy machines, so it’s fantastic if you can’t manage it yourself in a different way. But it should be kept alive. (Irene, in Siverskog, 2016:209)
Here, responsibility for one’s own sexuality is repeated, which reflects a contemporary discourse in which older people are increasingly being made responsible for maintaining an active sexuality, where this is made into a personal responsibility. The body is mentioned here, as in other interviews, as something that may limit the possibilities of certain sexual practices. The quote also mentions equipment beyond the body relevant to enabling sex, such as a firmer bed and vibrators.
Among the trans people in the same study, a frustration surrounding seeking sexual partners online is frequently expressed, and both needing to explain their (trans)identity along with an impending risk of not being seen as who they are. Sexual situations involve exposing the body which also poses a risk of being rejected. In these stories, it becomes clear how gender identity, sexual desire and sexuality are intertwined, where what and who you desire is also dependent on what and who you are allowed to be and become in those situations (Siverskog, 2016:213-215).
Ageing with HIV
Many of those who are ageing today and who were in lesbian, gay and bisexual communities during the 1980s have strong memories from this time and suffered major losses when HIV broke out (Åberg, 2018; Meggers Matthiesen, 2019; Siverskog, 2016; Vesterlund, 2013; Alasuutari, 2020). Thanks to the development of antiretroviral drugs, HIV is now a chronic disease and people age with HIV. In addition, more and more older people are diagnosed with HIV, which in turn means that more and more older people living with HIV interacted with the healthcare system and elder care (Åberg, 2018). Between 3% and 4% of men who have sex with men (MSM) are living with HIV in Sweden, compared to 0.06% in the general population. Other sexually transmitted diseases (STD) such as syphilis and gonorrhoea are also more common in the MSM group. A Swedish survey of 656 MSM who had travelled abroad investigated their experiences of HIV/STD prevention (Qvarnström & Oscarsson, 2015). Few had encountered prevention campaigns in Sweden (5%) and abroad (23%), and a majority (58%) of the participants felt that there should be more prevention initiatives. Free access to condoms and lubricants was the initiative preferred by most the men. The oldest (60–75 years) participants (together with the youngest) were those who had the least experience of prevention initiatives (Qvarnström & Oscarsson, 2015).
A participant in a Norwegian study talks about how he lost his entire circle of friends and his partner because of his HIV diagnosis. He could not be open about his sexuality with his family because they had not accepted that he was gay. However, he received support and help through a support group organised by the Norwegian Directorate of Health (Eggebø et al., 2019:80). Another aspect is contact with doctors and primary care, where it may be necessary to be open about your sexual practices to get tested regularly. In a Danish study focusing on experiences from the healthcare system, a 70-year-old gay man talks about having anonymous sex and therefore wants to be tested for HIV annually. He talks about being well received by his doctor:
And he agrees, and says ‘we’ll do that, we’ll do a test every year, and that’s a good idea, and we’ll protect you that way’. I think ... it is ideal ... that you don’t think: ‘God, I wonder what he’s going to say’ or you sit and package it all up and make up some kind of story, without being able to honestly say: ‘this is how it is’. (Egede et al., 2019:57)
The study also includes examples of people who have seen other doctors or attended specific testing clinics in order to remain anonymous in relation to their regular doctors (Egede et al., 2019:92). In a Finnish study, there was an example where a bisexual man sought medical care for physical problems which led to a long process of investigations. He had a female partner at the time and was afraid to tell about his previous relationships with men for fear of discrimination. This meant that doctors missed testing him for HIV until late in that process. Geography also comes into play here, where people from smaller towns state that they are afraid of HIV testing because of fear of the local community’s reactions and that the results from the test would not be confidential (Törmä et al., 2014). These fears, combined with the fact that prevention campaigns rarely target older people, increase the risk that older people with HIV do not detect it until a later stage in the disease when it has had time to progress. In addition, this also increases the risk of infecting others with HIV.